Dear You,
The latter of this story is long overdue, I shall cut to the chase immediately.
Maybe shocked would have been the choice of words that best express my emotion but it doesn't do justice to it despite the fact that I had seen it coming in a dream I had a few days before but I chose to ignore it (some of us are gifted with dreams you know).
I managed to pass my message across to my friend, avoiding the details to avoid hurting her a lot more than I already have and I was careful not to pass the blame on the guy,wanted to take responsibility for everything (things you do for love,yeah?).
When I asked for her opinion about me dating a friend's ex, the aggressive verbal outburst I got was alarming and I immediately knew that something wasn't right. She was my friend and we discussed even more complicated issues in the past but in this case, her response seemed rather direct and prepared, so I thought that she probably knew already. I wanted to leave the conversation at that but she insisted on knowing which of her ex was involved and the only name she could come up with was this guy's when I refused to yield. After I admitted to liking him and wanting to give him a chance, then she gave me her permission so easily I found it hard to believe.
Feeling confused and terrible, I decided to give our lover a buzz,told him what had happened, trying to make him realise that I was risking a lot for the affection I felt for him and all he did was laugh repeatedly,we had a brief chat afterwards and that was it.
To cut short this awkward story, the love birds were back together the next day and I felt like a dumb fool......lol
I hope they have their happily ever after,i said to my friend though I wonder if either of them ever cared about me in the way that I did as I was informed by another friend of ours that the lovers had it planned from the onset,i still doubt that. I should have seen it coming, I should have read the signs, anyway.........(singing in westlife's voice). "
Guess that's what life is about, good emotions, bad judgements and ugly turn outs but hey in all of the beautiful chaos, I believe in people standing for what they want whether it turns out right or wrong, whether you follow your heart or head, whether you get hurt or hurt a friend. Life is full of surprises, live the moment,embrace the pain,learn the lessons and regret nothing because no matter what your decisions are or how hard you worry,things always turn out just the way they are designed to be. I hope you work things out with your friend if the friendship means so much to you but if you can't, let it go. True friends will not plan with anyone to toy with your emotions as a test of loyalty especially when you already expressed your vulnerability to them. I'm not saying that you've done right but hey to err is human, to forgive is divine........Look on the bright side of every situation, you deserve better.
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