Married To A PIMP

Hi You,
Here is today's DLS.........

"Growing up at some point during my early childhood in a ghetto where I felt displaced,out shinning almost every other kid, watching and listening to teenagers and adults around me act and speak like "American wannabes",it took me yester' years to know what the word PIMP really meant. Back then for me,it was a fancy word that meant enhancing something or someone's outlook. I heard people say things like "let me pimp you", "i'm going to pimp my car" etc and to crown my non dictionary definition, a "Pimp My Ride Show " surfaced on TV on the long run, so I embraced my assumed definition (slang) of the word until my curiosity drove me to check for the dictionary meaning ..........i bet you're expecting me to help you with a definition right now,sorry to disappoint you dear,please use your dictionary..........*tongue out* lol

That said, I met my husband a few years ago and I knew him to have a lot of female friends. Some he occasionally slept with and a few he had as his regular babes. I happened to be one of his regulars but knew there were others just has they knew I existed. Let the challenge begin or so I saw it as we all played the game of winning position number one whether consciously or uncousiously. (lol)

Soon,i was number one and it almost felt like I won a lottery not knowing that I had just lost a few of my precious years to hell itself. You know how we ignorantly fight for what we do not need all in the name of having the last laugh? That was my case. I wanted the impossible, wanted a mirage for reality, told myself the devil was just a fallen angel and constantly reminded myself that the angel in him should be my focus, so hell became my heaven and it took me years to finally come to terms with what he really was no matter how hard I tried not to see.........he was a man who had no integrity and will do almost anything for money, maybe pimp his spouse if he thinks she would dance to the tune amongst other things, but we were already married before it finally dawned on me.
Once as his girlfriend, I remember been pimped to a man who sent some money and I wouldn't have known if the man had not requested to speak with me via phone call, I played along wanting to please my man until he collected the money and I didn't worry about it since I didn't have to see the man and it was a one time thing that wasn't a part of him he assured me, but soon I found out he had done the same with some of his previous girlfriends. (we sometimes do these stupid things in the name of love) *eyesrolling*

I started having issues with him majorly when he couldn't keep his whores from the home front,he kept too many photos of different girls,some he chatted with till late  nights and I wondered if he was sleeping with them and it came both as a relief and a shock when he told me he pimps them. I was relieved that the worst of my fears had not come through but shocked that he would sell out these gorgeous ladies to men for short term sex while he gets his percentage. It was then I thought about his history with ex girlfriends and I knew for sure that this man will not hesitate to pimp me 
should things ever get very financially ugly and that was his last resort. A man who can advertise you as a sex object to another man for money is as good as a man who uses women for money rituals. We fell apart eventually as a lot of things had been faulty from the onset of the relationship but one kind of man that will never have my attention again is the PIMP."